Saturday, July 09, 2005
I guess this is the worst feeling ever.
When your heart hurts so bad, your tears are already burning your eyes, but you gotta stay strong. show her that you already got over her but when deep within you, she lies beneath. You'll still find her there. She's still somewhere in your heart, a fact you cant change. You tried to let go, thinking it isn't as tough as you think but for so long, you didn't manage to do it afterall.
Uh huh (: I had so much fun last night, though the tears burnt my eyes a little. Heh, and much laughter got the night so bright, so perfect. I love the night sky a lot. I saw so many stars! Big & bright. Heh & I wanna do it again! Sadly, girlfriend did not stay though :( Ohwell, we got all the time in the world, right girlfriend? <3>
POP was great (= Smart & perfect, heh. Walked around, snapped a lot of photos. Sat around till around 9, went home. Talked to carol on the way home though! (= Showered, went online, talked to buddy! :D Again, some senses got into my head & I'm happy again! Hahah, I wanna stay like this forever ;) I wanna be like the past. I laugh & smile at almost everything :\ & I'm glad buddy didn't give up on me! How long its gonna take, how pain I gotta feel, I will still pull it through. I'll take the memories away no matter how shattered I was at that time. I'm still gonna love you, as a friend.
Confessions! :)
Natasha } We promised to be darlings for another 10, 20 years down the road. You're gonna attend my graduation & I'm gonna attend yours! We might even attend each other's wedding! :D I love you plenty, sweets <3 -hugs!
Girlfriend } I love heart <3 my girlfriend a lot! :D Let me know when she bullies you, I'll bully her twice as bad as she bullies you. Don't give her face. HMPH, then we don't friend her. Hahah. Your words left me on cloud 9 (= & I'll never forget them. We'll go catch stars together ok! :) -hugs! I love you always, gf! <3
Buddy } Same thing to you, you'll always be there -points to heart, this will never change. I will still remember you when I'm holding on to his hands. & when we both walk down the asile in the church, you ought to be there (= In my darkness moment, you gave me hope. -hugs! I love you heaps <3 I MISS YOU A LOT LAH HOR.
Caroline & Amanda } Thanks for everything, love. You make life so beautiful lah (= We gotta catch up soon ok! Out out out together! :D I've got so much to say please!! See yall soon! -hugs tight! Love you both! <3
The OhMyGodsXz } Thanks for being there all the time. Thanks so much for the fun we had. More to come yes? & we're gonna spend a lot of time together ok! & remember, you're not alone :D you got ohmygod no.1(the great!) (: Love you both truckloads! -hugs!
CLIQUE } I DON'T KNOW WHAT I WILL BECOME WITHOUT YALL! Little things, both good & bad we went through, brought us a little closer, step by step. & makes me love yall more & more each day! (: Thanks for everything, babes. We'll never drift apart (= -hugs all tight! Love yall sexayes <3
; stick with you
